dream lover or soul mate ?
it has happened a few times .. in a few distinct fleeting moments, he haunts my dreams .. i met my TWIN FLAME – my SOUL MATE ..
suspended in a brief moment of undeniable certainty that our souls are one, he appears ..
i have never quite seen his face, but i know it is him .. i know it with such conviction & lucidity .. with my every breath & tremor .. we have danced – him and i .. mirroring each other as if piroetting to an infinite dance of a timeless cosmic union ..
we have held hands on an eternal bus on the universal highway – i did not know when my body started & his began in that physical meld ..
he appeared before me, yet again – i only saw the contours of his face, the outline of his ethereal body … his candour & demeanour, altruistic & noble – with all the splendour of a star-crossed lover ..
but am i in nostalgic mourning – of a loss that once was .. or perhaps one, that is still yet to be ?
i crave that which i cannot grasp, except for an elusive moment in a dream state ..
i do not know – and yet, i long to discover if he has incarnated on this earthly realm …
dream lover – show yourself unto me .. for this world is an illusion without you, and i dare not accept any less, until you show that we are both ready to share this exquisite rapture …
time and time again, you reveal your existence, but what challenges have you laid before me? what is it that i need to to do to win you over?
i feel like poor pysche in the archetypal mythology between eros & psyche, torn apart by aphrodite .. awaiting my lessons ..
yours in eternal ache & soul, vamp
I love this so much!! I feel the ache.
thank you for your comment ‘tobeme’ ..
it is an ache that has persisted for at least 8 years
and still, i wait with bated breathe
Have you tried any lucid dreaming approaches to gain enough consciousness during dreams of him to ask for information? It can be very difficult, but very worthwhile. I’m currently trying to get back into it as the primary focus of my attention… I let it slip a number of years ago because it was so difficult at the time, but by that time it had already yielded a first name! (Now I just need a last name to actually be able to have any chance at tracking her down… :/ )
At any rate, good luck! (And if you do decide to go the lucid route, I highly recommend taking a glance at the Wiki entry on it for a primer on the different methods of inducing lucid dreams… as well as using some of the supplements available to ease the difficulty of actually getting them to fire up when you want them to.)
That is beautiful. And in some ways, I can relate. I hope you find him. You never know, one day he might even come along and read this xxx